I was checking up on some other blogs and noticed this thing about not having a ton to post. I guess, for the most part, I have that same affliction right now. However, even as I write that satement, I realize that is not entirely true. Things over here have been moving forward, some things pretty slow, some things pretty fast. I know that sounds cryptic, but I am trying to figure out how to post about some of the new stuff.
Suffice to say that life in the Chi has changed a bit for me, and my neatly packaged future has come undone. I am still trying to figure out what all these changes mean, what is going on, and how to acknowledge them out loud without jinxing myself. Of course, the arena of which I speak is dating, that pesty little topic that I have been trying to tackle over the last few weeks. You may not know this about me, but I tend to over analyze and freak out about every little aspect of a situation (okay, fine, maybe it's not such a big secret) but for some reason, with the current situation, I feel almost inhibited by the blog, my little diary of life through which I used to feel safe to vomit just about any thought that ran through my overworked brain.
Maybe I am selectively choosing my words this time because really, I am not overthinking this thing, but rather just letting it be, just accepting things as they come. I am freakishly calm about the new development, as if it were the most normal thing in the world, and as if it was life as it always was. Just different. Does that even make sense? Or maybe because it just makes sense, so there is no need to hash it out. I don't know. This is SO not me.
I am also hesitant because, for the most part, the people about whom I talk on this blog don't usually read this stuff. Well, my family and Larry (who is like my family), but they know they are always subject to my thought-onslaught, be it on the blog or in real life (lucky them). But now it is different, and I want to respect the privacy and life of the new "development."
So I guess when the time is right, and things are as clear as can be, more details will come. For now, I am happy. And calm. And accepting. And I have nothing else to report.