Sunday, March 1, 2009

For the Heck of It

Today, I really really missed Ironman.

It was one of those days where I was just consumed with the memories of last year.

And it hit me that I am one month short of the year anniversary.

It was right around this time (last year) that I was doing my five and six-hour trainer rides, buying obscene amounts of Clif Shots and Balance bars, and doing laundry three times a week just for the gym clothes.

My body was ripped, my jeans were loose, and I felt like an effing machine, even if just in my own mind. I was strong and I was proud - I felt like the baddest bitch on the planet. Literally.

Aaaaaand here we are a year later.

Take all of what I just said above, and think the exact opposite – and that is where I am right now.

I think it's mostly becuase right now, I’m not really training for anything, so I don't have a ton of focus. I have a couple running races coming up, but probably don’t need to really start training for Steelhead (august) for a bit yet.

And you can tell I am a little bored and/or looking for a goal, the way I handled the no-winner-just-for-fun YMCA triathlon.

Like a damn lunatic.

So for shits and giggles, I did a long brick today.

Why?

Because that’s what Sundays are for – the long brick.

And really, because I just like the satisfaction of the long brick.

No – correction – I LOVE the satisfaction of a long brick.

I love spending my Sunday mornings in my own sweat, breaking through moments of self-doubt, and then finally standing in the shower for 20 burning minutes.

I love waking up sore.

And plus, it’s really shaming to read all those Facebook status updates of everybody doing all the bike/swim/run tests, or day-long bricks while I sits and eat four bowls of cereal. And read Facebook.

But I am not complaining about the lack of Ironman in my life this year – I am really fortunate to be able to do even just my one race- Steelhead - and to still have a job that affords me the ability to do this as a pastime.

I am not complaining.

But I just miss it.

A lot.

10 comments:

xt4 said...

It's in your blood, girl.

Come volunteer again in September. I'll go through your Gatorade line.

Good post.

The (IRON) Clyde said...

IMWI 2010, right?


Count me in.

M said...

xt4 - you know I'd be there in two shakes with my screaming lungs ready, but this year IMMadison falls on the day I get married. Literally.

yeaaahhh, sooooo, yeah.

it was one or the other.

And yes, CLyde I would so be in for that, but given the aforementioned statement, I can't be up there to sign up in person, which leaves little to no chance I would get in. I'll give it a shot, but alas, it may not happen for me next year. booooooooo!!!!!

Benson said...

It's nice to be afflicted with a good disease like Ironman. Feed it.

prin said...

As the only person in your entourage who is not a part of your bizarre world of over-working-out, I will not be enabling your addiction.

Instead, I'll encourage you to use those hours and hours spent in the gym for other things. You know, like... um...

*crickets*

The Big Cheese said...

Funny, when I use the term "long brick" it means something entirely different. Such as, "That was the longest brick I have ever taken, get the camera."

MadisonDuo said...

2010 IM WI...you must get your tail up here this year and we will register together!

I miss it too :( And I don't even miss the race (ok maybe a little), but I sure do miss the structured - determined - focused training that it requires.

MadisonDuo said...

Ah shit, just read your comment and you are getting married that weekend. For christ sake's woman...well lets do the math - if you can finish in 10 hours, that puts you at the finish line by 5pm, we can get your showered and in your gown by 6:30ish and off the ball by 7pm. :)

Have you sent out the invites yet? If not, you got time that day to squeeze in a 'small' race!

hehehe - oh so happy for you and the cheese man. :)

Joe said...

i'm with you, meg. i feel like shit these days, too. it's killing me not doing anything, either.

Erin said...

I know you want a wedding night and all but if you can get up to Madison by 5am I bet I could get you into the volunteer line!

and no I rarely condone cheating but just this once would be ok right??? I'd never do it again I swear! :)