No seriously, is it?
I am in such a work fog, I can't remember what day it is.
Yesterday was so long, in fact, I could have sworn it lasted a week.
The upshot is that with so much work, I have sort of emotionally shut down - I am simply too exhausted to really care about anything else.
And in the "anything else" catagory would be working out, eating right, worrying about the grapefruit (which is now almost gone), and pretty much anything else happening in the personal life.
Maybe that's a good thing, at least for right now.
In fact, I woke up this morning (late) to the sounds of my bike quietly weeping in the corner while my running shoes were softly comforting it.
Bike: I just don't understand. Sometimes she loves me, we have these great bonding sessions filled with intense emotions and sweat, and the BAM! Nothing. It's like she doesn't even care!
Shoes: I know, I know. But sometimes she just needs her space. Sometimes she just needs to compartmentalize, like a guy, and shut it down for a few days.
Bike: How does she do it though? I thought we had a connection! And then to just turn it on and off? It makes no sense.
Shoes: Yeah, she's gone through that with us too. Love us, hate us - the push and pull can be infuriating. But she's a good girl, she's worth hanging in there for....just give her some time.
Bike: I'm not getting any younger, and these smooth lines and curves aren't going to be around forever. I gave her so much of myself! All those miles, in the Arizona heat, on that pitiful trainer all those months - I gave and gave! And for what? To be forgotten about in the corner of the room and have clothese and visors piled on me, just waiting for a call, waiting for a glance, waiting for her to climb on top of me whenever she feels good and ready? I feel so used! I can't keep putting myself through this. I think we need to break up.
Shoes: Now, now, don't do anything rash. She's come back before, she'll come back again.
Bike: I am nobody doormat, not even for an Ironman. There are too many good miles ahead of me, so many roads to conquer. These wheels need to get a-spinning, and she's either going to be with me or have to find another set of areo bars to lay on. Do you know that I caught her coming home this weekend, reeking of french fries and donuts! I am not going to just sit around and watch her love her sweet gummy bears and Red Vines more than me!
So I rolled over, covered my head with pillow, and wished the bike a long ride off a short pier.
Maybe I'll take her for a spin for "Bike the Drive" this weekend. Or maybe I'll lay in bed and watch the Indiana Jones trilogy and eat cereal.
Yeah, I know - the possibilities for fun in my life are endless.
Just like a Chicago-version of Carrie Bradshaw.
Expect without the martinis, fancy clothes, filthy rich booty call soon-to-be-husband, and closet space.