Just got back from the doctor. Since my insurance has not yet kicked in and there is no MRI, we are operating under the assumption that I have a bulging disk in my lower back, based on preliminary tests. What does that mean?
Given that we are four weeks out from the race, it is likely that training is over for me, and I have to make the choice whether or not I can do a race with after a four-week hiatus. My initial response is no, as I can barely sit or lay down without excruciating pain at this moment. I will have to go to physical therapy three times a week until the race, and that might not even be enough. I can't see beyond the searing blinding light of pain and my own tears right now.
So for the time being, I have nothing else to say. There are actually no words for how bad and disappointing this feels. Absolutely no words.