Because it is freaking me out.
I seem to have found all the blogs of people doing IM AZ, and of course, everyone has posted their training plans, their milage, etc. And of course, like the self-abusing individual I am, I sit and compare what I am doing to what everyone else is doing.
But the thing is, it's hard to compare their multiple century rides to my multi-hour indoor trainer rides. I don't know how far I have traveled in my apartment, but I know that when I get on that thing, I stop only to go to the bathroom. And I ride long enough that I am not fully recovered from my saddle sores even a week later. I could estimate that I have probably logged a couple of centuries myself, but I have also not trained in the wind or cold. Also, I have had the company of movies or my IPod to get me through the mind numbingness of it all, which I won't have on race day - there are some things only outdoor training can get you which I have not had.
I have swam at 2-3 times a week, and am currently swimming between 3600-3900 yards each time. But is it enough? Plus, I'll admit it - I don't always do my speed swims as fast as I need to. Sometimes I get lazy, and think, "Hey, at least I'm in here."
I know I can run about 20 miles, and I have a some marathons already under my belt. But again, I use the IPod.
But is it enough?
Not when I read what other people are doing.
Will I finish?
I hope, but it might not be pretty.
So here's my pledge - no more blog reading of people doing IM AZ. Everyone else's - yes.
I am pretty sure I have enough crazy in me aside from this race - no need to add to it.